What's going through my mind...

So lately I have been thinking a lot of relationships...mainly my relationship with Jonathan. So we broke up about a month ago I guess, and things have been fine. I am happy without him, but yet I still love to see him, and talk to him. It's like I just want someone to have to call, or someone to hang out with. I want that spot filled, or something like that. So it's almost like I don't want to be with him, because I'm not unhappy without him, but I want someone to talk to and see, like being that are dating would. BUT, I don't want to just call anyone, or see anyone, I want to see him, and call him. So then I think, maybe it's a good thing, maybe this is a way of showing that I do want to be with him, since I don't want anyone else. I don't know if these thoughts are good or bad. I don't know if they mean we shouldn't be together, or if we should. It really messes with my head. I don't know what to think, or do. I am fine without him, if we should be together should I long for him more? Just I miss him more? I mean, I do miss him, and oh boy do I long for him, but really, I am just fine. It seems to me, that if we were supposed to be together/should be together, then I wouldn't be able to be just fine, and wouldn't be taking this so easily. Am I a horrible person? Should we really not be together? Or is this normal? Does this make me strong? What?!?! I do love him, I do want to marry him, and I feel like I'm so sure of these things, but then this happens and I wonder if it's really supposed to work.....or what.